14/10/06

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What should I say. What can I say.

Can I say that last night and today was one of the worst days in my life? Sure. I can. First time that so many negative events piled up together, just to spite me.

I was given a "waking up" just about an hour ago. I used to be so full of myself, thinking that I could take matters into my own hands. I over-estimated myself, and I under-estimated God.

Could I feel any lousier about myself right now...When can I be God-dependent? When will I learn to trust God and Sis Cat 100% without feeling doubtful? When will I learn not to go over my head? WHEN WILL I LEARN TO LOVE THOSE AROUND ME?

Thanks to the one who rebuked me. I realise my mistake. And how one's foolishness can harm those around her.

Never again. I give God my word.